Bering&Wells

Beth, 18, Surrey, UK 'How do you say goodbye to the one person that knows you better than anyone else?' Previous URL - upanddowntheboulevard

‘There is one story, more than any other, that pains me to tell but you must understand it from my perspective. That first 6 months after I was de-bronzed I was lost; the only hope for me was your mother. However my vision was blurred. I felt that if I destroyed the world I would save Myka from all the evil hiding away, waiting to hurt her. I was wrong. I was so consumed with anger and hate that I couldn’t see I was only hurting the people around me, hurting the ones I loved.

Your mother knew the only way I would break free of my disillusion was for me to hold a gun to her head.

This is the memory that will haunt me everyday that I remain in the Bronze Sector - I wanted to kill her. If I could channel all my rage into that one shot I knew there was a possibility that everything would end. I looked her in the eyes and I began to pull the trigger. 

It seems clichéd to say but I saw my life flash before my eyes. I saw my life in England, I saw my Christina, I saw myself getting re-instated as a Warehouse agent and I saw the first time I laid eyes on you mother. I understand that at 10 you’ll be too young to know the awesome, overwhelming ability love has, but it was this power that stopped me from firing the gun.

There is no punishment on earth that befits the nature of my crime. There is also no cure for the broken heart I am forced to endure for eternity.

If you only remember one thing about me, let it be that I regret my actions. Your mother was and always will be my love and you, dear child, are proof of that.’

(AU - Myka and Helena had a child at some point in Season 2, but she was re-bronzed again after ‘Reset’.)

(Part 1, 2, 3)